The Trust Factor

Trust is not easily obtained and when its broken its not easily amended. It is a factor that is often mishandled and abused. Manipulators often perceive it to be a sign of a weakness or an opportunity for their advancement. Whats hideous is that despite how sacred it is its not cherished enough. I have witness others use it as if it is something that is disposable. When trust is lost entirely its absences can break ones spirit.Hope and Trust go hand in hand you cannot have one without the other. The lack of trust drives some to do some of the most harmful things to others and themselves. Its a epidemic thats not addressed enough. We know the problem exist but there are very few resolutions to offer. The key may be in ones will. Even then it is a great task to find it. Trust should not be invested frivolously when it remains.It would be so convenient if it was something that could be purchased or if some sort of insurance was available unfortunately this isnt so. I wish I had a definite answer for those who suffer. Hold on to it and let no one or nothing take it for granted before its to late.

Singin' In The Rain (Bboy Shit)

I loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove bboying. Its what started my interest in hip hop in the 80's. I used lock wave, and work on my back spins way back in the day. With out further or do heres one of my favorite remixed song orginally performed by Gene Kelly( a legendary dancer) this has a bboy twist to it. Watch

A Thousand Ripples

Everything progressive in existence is harmonious in nature.No act rather it be minor or major goes without some form of significance. If you were to toss a pebble into water it may potentially cause a thousand ripples. It will effect the aquatic environment in which the pebble has landed. Same law applies in the universe. Everything we say along with our actions have influence. We may not be aware until we see the aftermath. Decisions should be made with great consideration. Be conscious.. always

2010 Was A Failure

This year was a major disappointment for me. Alot was at stake I spent many years prior working hard making sacrifices and planning for 2010.. I invested unyielding love, patience and dedication only to get fucked over this year. This was suppose to be it for me the start to the new beginning that I deserved and severely needed..It was overdue.They say what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger.. In my case it has harden me alot to the point where i cant go back. I dont believe that is strength either.. Im not sure what that it is at this point in time. I have heard too often well "everything has happen for a reason"   That reaction seems hallow. Its like overcompensation for the right words to inspire that are missing. Usually after thats stated theres no further mention of how that event effected someone or if there is a real resolution to it. Its pointless to  front and be optimistic when there is no evidence of improvement. Like I stated before my faith has changed alot. Destiny is complex and misunderstood. Alot of people believe that destiny is a guarantee. Its not. Destiny is the destination to where you are suppose to be. It is up to you to find the means to get there. You cant sit on your ass and wait for it to knock on your door and appear. Sometimes a destiny involves others. You may being doing what you need to do to fulfill this destiny however those who are involved arent putting forth the same effort. Its not always a solo mission and without the cooperation there is no success. Im really not looking forward to anything major at all on a personal level..There are some things that I must do. But im not excited.  Typically for the average person it has great significance. For example advancing in a career, making more money, etc.  I dont love money or love making money. It just a resource to me and thats it. It doesnt define me I  dont care about social advancement bragging rights, or none of that other bull shit. All of this honestly makes me go in the opposite direction for a spiritual pursuit. I  appreciate spiritual wealth more then material wealth. One outcome I have always tried to avoid was spending so much time and focus on a monetary and martial pursuit that years passed by and one day I would wake up not knowing who I really was internally. Thats a dreadful existence to have. How one measures success says alot about their character.  Well I have said enough for now.. Until next time.

Angry Black Man

Aight so the first part of my name is Furious webster defines this as " exhibiting or goaded by anger or giving a stormy or turbulent appearance". I have never been one to be generous with smiles and no Im not smiling on the inside either. Theres no big bright  winking sun in my world with singing flowers and break dancing squirrels. Thats a luxury i know nothing of. Im usually in thought so my demeanor is often a serious one. I do have alot of anger in me that is channeled through various avenues. When one does not know how to channel this anger they become an insufferable ass hole who walks around making everyone's  life miserable. Those are miserable and bitter people. Usually how one feels internally reflects externally. Im unapologetic for my disposition. So why are you so angry? I see so much injustices  on a daily basis. Some of which I'm searching for the right  solutions to resolve these problems. Some of them  I have no direct control over it and it saddens me. On top of that  there is stress and  situations that I have to deal with unwillingly. I seek personal retribution as well but I wont speak any further on that.  I believe happiness is measured individually on a scale  that is molded from higher expectations that  exceeds one's current lifestyle. Due to the terms and conditions of what does make me happy  unfortunately it is no longer attainable. This fulfillment  cannot be substituted. My focus is now directed  toward gaining  insight and peace. In the midst of that pursuit there is times where  I want to curse folks out and force choke the  shit out of people ... word to Darth Vadar. I refrain from this and react in a more suitable manner. The sentiment that remains with me is still heavy though. As patient as I am there  are certain things I refuse to tolerate. All that is worthy will have my unyielding patience. My life is W.A.R. which means Weighting Aggression Responsibly. Acting strategically with intelligence separates you from those who behave recklessly. Anger can cloud ones judgment and may cause one to speak carelessly.You are responsible for your own words and actions that you put in space. Anger has to be converted to fuel that will keep you driven  but your intent ultimately must be one of peace. There is no other way. If I had the opportunity I would be on the other side of the world in some form of solitude meditating with monks instead of dealing with much of this nonsense. However this cant be at this point . I have no other choice but to make the best out of a bad situation and maintain..

In a world that capitalizes off of others ignorance when you become aware of the systematic deception and rebel against it you become a threat. Its like in the Matrix when the freedom fighters become unplug and they discover that the world they live in is a lie. They have a new sense of awareness.Once they return into the matrix the agents see them as a threat so they are constantly under attack. That level of Intelligence is viewed as a threat. . When you wise up and become aware and seek positive change negativity will closely follow.You will be provoked. It truly is a spiritual and metaphysical matter.  I suppose on the surface I will appear as  a Angry Black Man but far from the stereotypical format.  Beyond  the rage there is tranquility.  So I will remain merciless yet my position is zen. Its  a perfect blend a centrifugal force that comes  from within!

Knowing Your Self

Whats up yall.. I have to be honest as the days progress I find myself having less and less to say in general.Its not a matter in which I  dont know what to say.thats not it at all. I feel like I have said much of all that needs to be said. Sometimes I feel like I have said too much This has lead me into this topic which is "knowing your self' This year during certain transgressions I  have tested the waters and entertained certain possibilities. I ended up pushing myself into various social settings in which i should not have been in. I only have myself to blame. I followed advice that ended up hindering me instead of helping. If I  had listened to my instincts I would of been better off.I failed to listen to myself.. I can say as of lately I have been following my instincts and it has led to  some progress. I have gotten alot of shit too about this  because it conflicts with what some believe  that I should be doing. Others  perspectives does not dictate my personal worth. No matter how much they try to justify themselves  I'm not moved by it. Knowing yourself  means being aware of what tries to dictate and influence you.If you let them some people will try to redefine you or force expectations on you that dont fit.. I never ran from myself and I  refuse to be something that I'm not. What I strive for is to be a better me,That requires weeding out whats necessary  and whats not. Saying less and reflecting more.  For myself less equates to more.  I dont have faith in things that I used to ...much has shifted. No one will ever fully understand the detail of  these personal changes except for you. There is no need to validate them openly to anyone  let it flourish on its own. It is a self contained force that should not be tampered with. Only the foolish will try to appraise it...I have no said date for my next posting. I urge all of you to listen to yourself, If you dont know yourself get acquainted!.Follow your own path and let nothing lead you astray.