The Trust Factor

Trust is not easily obtained and when its broken its not easily amended. It is a factor that is often mishandled and abused. Manipulators often perceive it to be a sign of a weakness or an opportunity for their advancement. Whats hideous is that despite how sacred it is its not cherished enough. I have witness others use it as if it is something that is disposable. When trust is lost entirely its absences can break ones spirit.Hope and Trust go hand in hand you cannot have one without the other. The lack of trust drives some to do some of the most harmful things to others and themselves. Its a epidemic thats not addressed enough. We know the problem exist but there are very few resolutions to offer. The key may be in ones will. Even then it is a great task to find it. Trust should not be invested frivolously when it remains.It would be so convenient if it was something that could be purchased or if some sort of insurance was available unfortunately this isnt so. I wish I had a definite answer for those who suffer. Hold on to it and let no one or nothing take it for granted before its to late.

Singin' In The Rain (Bboy Shit)

I loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove bboying. Its what started my interest in hip hop in the 80's. I used lock wave, and work on my back spins way back in the day. With out further or do heres one of my favorite remixed song orginally performed by Gene Kelly( a legendary dancer) this has a bboy twist to it. Watch

A Thousand Ripples

Everything progressive in existence is harmonious in nature.No act rather it be minor or major goes without some form of significance. If you were to toss a pebble into water it may potentially cause a thousand ripples. It will effect the aquatic environment in which the pebble has landed. Same law applies in the universe. Everything we say along with our actions have influence. We may not be aware until we see the aftermath. Decisions should be made with great consideration. Be conscious.. always

2010 Was A Failure

This year was a major disappointment for me. Alot was at stake I spent many years prior working hard making sacrifices and planning for 2010.. I invested unyielding love, patience and dedication only to get fucked over this year. This was suppose to be it for me the start to the new beginning that I deserved and severely needed..It was overdue.They say what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger.. In my case it has harden me alot to the point where i cant go back. I dont believe that is strength either.. Im not sure what that it is at this point in time. I have heard too often well "everything has happen for a reason"   That reaction seems hallow. Its like overcompensation for the right words to inspire that are missing. Usually after thats stated theres no further mention of how that event effected someone or if there is a real resolution to it. Its pointless to  front and be optimistic when there is no evidence of improvement. Like I stated before my faith has changed alot. Destiny is complex and misunderstood. Alot of people believe that destiny is a guarantee. Its not. Destiny is the destination to where you are suppose to be. It is up to you to find the means to get there. You cant sit on your ass and wait for it to knock on your door and appear. Sometimes a destiny involves others. You may being doing what you need to do to fulfill this destiny however those who are involved arent putting forth the same effort. Its not always a solo mission and without the cooperation there is no success. Im really not looking forward to anything major at all on a personal level..There are some things that I must do. But im not excited.  Typically for the average person it has great significance. For example advancing in a career, making more money, etc.  I dont love money or love making money. It just a resource to me and thats it. It doesnt define me I  dont care about social advancement bragging rights, or none of that other bull shit. All of this honestly makes me go in the opposite direction for a spiritual pursuit. I  appreciate spiritual wealth more then material wealth. One outcome I have always tried to avoid was spending so much time and focus on a monetary and martial pursuit that years passed by and one day I would wake up not knowing who I really was internally. Thats a dreadful existence to have. How one measures success says alot about their character.  Well I have said enough for now.. Until next time.

Angry Black Man

Aight so the first part of my name is Furious webster defines this as " exhibiting or goaded by anger or giving a stormy or turbulent appearance". I have never been one to be generous with smiles and no Im not smiling on the inside either. Theres no big bright  winking sun in my world with singing flowers and break dancing squirrels. Thats a luxury i know nothing of. Im usually in thought so my demeanor is often a serious one. I do have alot of anger in me that is channeled through various avenues. When one does not know how to channel this anger they become an insufferable ass hole who walks around making everyone's  life miserable. Those are miserable and bitter people. Usually how one feels internally reflects externally. Im unapologetic for my disposition. So why are you so angry? I see so much injustices  on a daily basis. Some of which I'm searching for the right  solutions to resolve these problems. Some of them  I have no direct control over it and it saddens me. On top of that  there is stress and  situations that I have to deal with unwillingly. I seek personal retribution as well but I wont speak any further on that.  I believe happiness is measured individually on a scale  that is molded from higher expectations that  exceeds one's current lifestyle. Due to the terms and conditions of what does make me happy  unfortunately it is no longer attainable. This fulfillment  cannot be substituted. My focus is now directed  toward gaining  insight and peace. In the midst of that pursuit there is times where  I want to curse folks out and force choke the  shit out of people ... word to Darth Vadar. I refrain from this and react in a more suitable manner. The sentiment that remains with me is still heavy though. As patient as I am there  are certain things I refuse to tolerate. All that is worthy will have my unyielding patience. My life is W.A.R. which means Weighting Aggression Responsibly. Acting strategically with intelligence separates you from those who behave recklessly. Anger can cloud ones judgment and may cause one to speak carelessly.You are responsible for your own words and actions that you put in space. Anger has to be converted to fuel that will keep you driven  but your intent ultimately must be one of peace. There is no other way. If I had the opportunity I would be on the other side of the world in some form of solitude meditating with monks instead of dealing with much of this nonsense. However this cant be at this point . I have no other choice but to make the best out of a bad situation and maintain..

In a world that capitalizes off of others ignorance when you become aware of the systematic deception and rebel against it you become a threat. Its like in the Matrix when the freedom fighters become unplug and they discover that the world they live in is a lie. They have a new sense of awareness.Once they return into the matrix the agents see them as a threat so they are constantly under attack. That level of Intelligence is viewed as a threat. . When you wise up and become aware and seek positive change negativity will closely follow.You will be provoked. It truly is a spiritual and metaphysical matter.  I suppose on the surface I will appear as  a Angry Black Man but far from the stereotypical format.  Beyond  the rage there is tranquility.  So I will remain merciless yet my position is zen. Its  a perfect blend a centrifugal force that comes  from within!

Knowing Your Self

Whats up yall.. I have to be honest as the days progress I find myself having less and less to say in general.Its not a matter in which I  dont know what to say.thats not it at all. I feel like I have said much of all that needs to be said. Sometimes I feel like I have said too much This has lead me into this topic which is "knowing your self' This year during certain transgressions I  have tested the waters and entertained certain possibilities. I ended up pushing myself into various social settings in which i should not have been in. I only have myself to blame. I followed advice that ended up hindering me instead of helping. If I  had listened to my instincts I would of been better off.I failed to listen to myself.. I can say as of lately I have been following my instincts and it has led to  some progress. I have gotten alot of shit too about this  because it conflicts with what some believe  that I should be doing. Others  perspectives does not dictate my personal worth. No matter how much they try to justify themselves  I'm not moved by it. Knowing yourself  means being aware of what tries to dictate and influence you.If you let them some people will try to redefine you or force expectations on you that dont fit.. I never ran from myself and I  refuse to be something that I'm not. What I strive for is to be a better me,That requires weeding out whats necessary  and whats not. Saying less and reflecting more.  For myself less equates to more.  I dont have faith in things that I used to ...much has shifted. No one will ever fully understand the detail of  these personal changes except for you. There is no need to validate them openly to anyone  let it flourish on its own. It is a self contained force that should not be tampered with. Only the foolish will try to appraise it...I have no said date for my next posting. I urge all of you to listen to yourself, If you dont know yourself get acquainted!.Follow your own path and let nothing lead you astray.

Copasetic Music Group

Just giving everyone a heads up  if you haven't already check out our band Copasetic Music Group. We are a diverse group of emcees, poets, and producers, If you love real hip hop we wont disappoint ya. I will be posting upcoming performance dates soon.  

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Confessions Of A Sneakerholic #2: She Keeps On Passing Me By

Alright Yall, this is volume number two to the Confessions Of A Sneakerholic. In the sneaker head world we have a term called " Holy Grail". That refers to the one pair or pairs of sneakers that we want the most but have not yet obtained. I have a few on my list but I have been fortunate enough to get some of those pairs so my list is now under five  pairs of kicks. These are the Sea Crystal Nike Dunk SB(pictured above). I have had horrible.. I repeat horrible experiences trying to purchase these. I wasnt hip to SB Dunks until many years after the line has started. As a result a D.S. pair(Dead Stock: brand new never tried on or worn) of these are hard as hell to find and the worth of them have damn near tripled. A dead stock pair goes for at least $400. Why so much? SB Dunks are only sold at special stores with special accounts. You cant just go into foot locker and cop it isnt that easy. Not to mention I wear a size 8.5 or 9. In the re seller market that size is the most expensive because when Nike releases samples of soon to be released sneakers the reps only have size 9. So if the shoe gets scraped all thats left is that size 9 so that makes them more rare and exclusive.Most kicks when they are displayed at stores the floor model is a 9 or a 8.5..it sucks. Despite how bad  I want these I cant bring myself to spend 400 on a pair of kicks. The economical side of me just cant do it. I  wont stoop that low to buy them from a site that sells boot leg sneakers either.Not to mention  because of the colorway of these Id be super paranoid to frequently wear them. I would be too self conscious about where I walked I wouldn't want to get a stain on them and if any one stepped on them..there would be some smoke in the city. sigh


So my pursuit for  this lovely pair have been very discouraging. The first time I orded them it was  from reputable site in Europe. I got them at a hell of a price too. This  site sells legit kicks. They had happen to get some back stock in on some SB dunks  in that  order was  alot of rare kicks that were previously released.Sizes sold out quickly online. My boy and I ordered  three pairs of kicks two of them were his and one pair of sea crystals were mine. So I thought...When the kicks finally arrived at my boy house..two of  the three pairs  were delivered. The one missing was my damn grails. Now my boy wouldn't screw me over and keep them for him self.  He doesn't wear my size plus  nor would he do something foul and sell them behind my back. I known this kat since the late 80's we are brothers . So I had him contact the store. They b.s about getting back to us. Almost a week later they finally hit us back after we threaten to contact the better business bureau. They apparently charged the credit card  before checking the stock and found out later that they had sold out of my size and they failed to follow up with us. The refunded me for the missing pair I was heated. Ever since then its gone down hill. I lost at least 7 ebay auctions bidding on these. My girlfriend at the time  was even trying to buy me a pair but no luck. Seriously this has been the only pair of kicks I have reacquiring dreams about. It starts off with me driving I discover a new sneaker store. I go in and they have them on display. When the associate goes to  the back and get my size they never ever have my size or..I end up waking up before they can bring them  out.. I know what you may be thinking..grown a$& man having dreams about kicks right. I honestly have no shame when it comes to sneakers  we all have our thing that we are passionate about .For 5 years I have been hunting  for a pair in good condition for a reasonable price. Perhaps one day I'll lose my mind break down and shell out  the bread for a pair..One thing is for certain this is one of the most sexiest pair of dunks I have ever laid eyes on. This is typical stuff a sneaker head deals with smh...

Pain Does Not Dissolve ..You Must Master It

I felt compelled to touch on this subject despite how difficult it is for me to express it.The reason being is I wasn't sure about  how I should convey this...I am still gaining understanding myself about this so I can only share what little I know at this point.. I am unsure on who will read this my only intent is to help provide some sort of progress and cast this out to whom ever is willing to embrace it..Pain is inevitable it is a harsh reality that everyone faces. What differentiates is how one address this.Some have coping mechanism, some avoid it entirely,  and some are just so consume by this that they are unable to articulate what is felt. Due to the nature of pain it is not the easiest of topics to converse about. However I wont let that truth discourage  me from trying. This year has been the most turbulent year I have faced  yet all of my life. I have lost something that was irreplaceable with out any preparation on how to deal with this sort of lost. I have learned that fate is not kind to all of us. I say this because there is no guarantee that every cloudy day will end with a silver lining.The only option is to whether the storm relentlessly. The presence of pain may not fade  just because that  is what your spirit needs. You have to master it. When I say  master it I mean critically understanding how your pain is manifesting. Once that understanding  is obtained eventually  you will begin to unearth some sort of clarity. This is not a easy task at all  it is a constant work in progress. Some are fortunate enough to have support from others that have faced what they are currently enduring. One the other end of the spectrum they may not have the luxury of support and they are pron to falling on the deaf ears of others. For the most part this has been my outcome. When asked of my pain the intent of my  reaction  was not to seek sympathy it was to only try to inform others when they inquired.

At a certain point it is best to let  the experience quietly conclude and run its course. If you have a open wound in order for it to heal you cannot  pick at it or meddle with it.It must heal itself. Unfortunately some wounds heal but they leave behind scars. Those scars should not be ones of shame. "Out of suffering have emerged the strongest of souls the most massive of characters are seared with scars" - Khalil Gibran. This may be so but it does not equate to bragging rights either. It is sacred means of inner strength! Its significance is  just that intimate. No matter what pain you bare I strongly encourage you not to just  focus on the pain itself  alone but to focus on how you can apply the pain and what can potentially become of it. You and I may not share the exact same pain. What we do have in common is that  there is something remarkable below the surface of what  is desolate.  The time frame of its discovery is unknown.Even so it is up to self  to nourish  and cultivate it... No matter what be well and I will try to do the same!

Hookah + Music = Relaxation

In this chaotic world with all of its stress and b.s. the best remedy is Quite Time. Very often I like to let go of everything and go into solitude turn on some music, set up my hookah with some shisha and catch a good vibe.Most of my schedule is consumed with so many things that I dread doing but it comes with the territory of being responsible.At some point in my life I will do away with these circumstance and replace them with more rewarding experiences.I dont believe life should be filled with so many burdens and I wont tolerate them any more then I have to.I never understood why some feel guilty about relaxing ..at some point you have to say enough is enough. Take time to enjoy the simple things with no guilt or regrets!. My question for you is what do you do to relax?. .

Karma Mangement

Karma...a very powerful and delicate force in our universe. Those who have a sense of a responsibility and consequence believe in this force in some shape or form. Some commonly refer to it as pay back, reaping what you sow, paying it forward..etc.Despite what you refer to it as we all  believe that "what you put out there comes back to you". It is nearly impossible to go a lifetime without unintentionally hurting someone or making mistakes. No one is perfect.Perfection is far to high of standard  to strive for when we are all  simply human.I believe despite what mishaps that  may occur it is imperative to make amends. As we make amends true sincerity must be at the foundation of it.  If not your sentiments are hallow and they will become obvious.It is a difficult task to remain kind when you are faced with so much adversity. I don't recommend being vulnerable to the point where you allow others to take advantage of  you either .I think its best to use desecration and stand your ground. Being peaceful does not always mean being passive.In order to achieve peace you have to understand the nature of confrontation. From what I observed its not healthy to be around others who impose negative energy on you. If so you will find yourself in a constant battle and your own positive energy cannot grow. It becomes a draining experiences and I too have to deal with these people to some degree . An effective method when dealing with these people is to let them know of their behavior, set   boundaries, and reinforce them. If they cant respect that then  it is foolish to have any further obligation to them. But what about helping them along way? If they are willing to help themselves  first and foremost  along with your assistance then its worth an attempt . If not then it is an exercise of futility and you  will become a crutch for them. You could be applying  all of that good energy towards someone or an outlet that is more worthy of it. Its Karma Management! In conclusion treat others well but be vigilant, exercise kindness ,and give without expecting nothing directly in return. The universe is wise and no action will go without a response!

Confessions Of A Sneakerholic

                    (Only 1/4 of the sneakers that I own don't judge me)

Hello my name is Furious and Im addicted to sneakers..It started when I was a youth and being forced to only getting one pair of shoes per school year. My mother stressed education for some reason she thinks children who had multiple pairs of sneakers were not educated. I never understood that theory of hers at all. Any how I usually ended up getting a ugly pair of kicks on clearance or I was forced to put them in lay away.I was grateful to have shoes on my feet dont get me wrong but I never had the same appreciation for them as a consumer does I was closet enthusiast.  A  average consumer buys a  pair of sneakers usually so they can wear casually with different outfits that they already own.  They want something universal so to speak so they stick with a shoe that has a neutral color scheme if they are concerned with coordinating at all.. An Enthusiast will purchases a pair based on exclusivity, and or design.  We are attracted to what is considered to be weird or unconventional..It doesnt matter  if the enthusiast has the same style shoe in 5 different colors or if they own 6 or 7 pairs of shoes that happen to be the same color or a variation of it. To us it is a different shoe entirely    Like many sneaker heads  it started with The Air Jordans. Of course I didnt own a pair until I started working and I had a greater appreciation for them simply because my hard earn money was what brought them. I went through phases with sneakers. One period I only brought Air Force Ones and Jordans. Later on I branched off to Pumas and Adidas  Superstars.

One faithful  day I discovered The Nike Dunk. I remember seeing them on clearance on a website wondering what they were. I confused them with The Air Force One they look somewhat similar. However they had no strap to them even though they were high tops. My sneaker knowledge was limited at the time and I only knew of what the local malls had. Unfortunately I never really paid attention to anything else except for forces and jordans(or what ever sneaker I was into at that time) when I went into the store. So  curiosity and not having a credit card lead me  to a finish line and I brought my first pair for like $40 bucks.... That was about 6 years ago and I havent stop buying them since.. In retrospect all those years only seeking jordans and forces the stores I went to had dunks all along and I passed over some dope colorways. I have also started buying Nike Vandals. So Dunks, Vandals and every blue moon a pair of Jordans is pretty much what I wear. I also have read books on the sneaker head culture and informed myself of all of the many flavors and styles that are out there.Eventually I submerged myself into the culture "officially" even though I was always one by spirit.

Currently I own 70 pairs of kicks which in fact is not normal and more then enough for one person to own in a life time. lol I have no plans on stopping anytime soon this is one of my few passions. Its simple some men chase women, some are into cars , some are into sports, some are all about their money. My past time is sneakers and its more for the artistic value of them. Some cop to look fly and keep up with trends I really can careless about that.I am an individual who is fascinated with art and colors. Thats pretty much what keeps me interested in them. The Dunks have been released in some of the most captivating designs. I think its natural for a person wanting to indulge into some outlet. Im a simple man that doesnt have many wants or needs. But I guess my poison would be the kicks. Nike is one hell of a drug.... Peace

P.S. this is def a light subject matter there will be more depth in the future.. its all about balance. i will be posting upcoming releases too for any fiends who visit on here.

Intro

Whats up World, Im Furious Intellect of CMG. After seeing one of my comrades blog  Write Jus 1  it has inspired me to start my own. Im one of the few members of the group who does not have a face book,  twitter, or a myspace page for personal reasons. I figured this would be a different approach for me and an opportunity for  those who I know and fans of our group to find out a little bit more about me. However I really dont want this blog to be too "self absorbed" . I will  be posting a range of different subjects with no commitment just one topic at any given time. The blog is currently under construction also. Im not sure either how long I will keep this going so we shall see! Check out Write Jus 1 blog http://writejus.blogspot.com/